Run.

I want to run. I want to run so far that my feet bleed, so far that I can not breath or speak or walk. I want to run till the top of the mountains. I would run a thousand miles. I don't want any walls to fall down again. I have not cried. I think something bad will happen. I just want it to stop. Why can I not cry? How come I went from crying every night to not at all? Why? I just am begging nothing bad will happen....not again. Please. I have a feeling what will happen and I know that will make me cry.......for years on end. I beg for nothing horrific to happen, PLEASE! And that is why I want to run. I want to run away the feeling of pain.