I know I haven't wrote in a while. I have been busy lately. Even to busy to work out. I should probably be doing homework and studying for a huge test tomorrow, but I don't feel like it. I love christmas, but I'm going away and I have never been away before. Ever. The guy I like. Well he sat next to me again today, but I can't have an intreats in him, he is was out of my league. Not that I have a league. Although if I was categorized then I would be at the bottom of the chain. Anyway I really want him, I guess my dreams will have to subside for now. On the other hand I completely embarrassed myself today when talking about the food sex in a pan. It was good, but then I talked to a friend about it and well it all went downhill from there. I'm not myself at school. I never have been, and I'm pretty sure no one ever wants to see the true me. Well my life is basically over, so now I shall just go to bed at 8:30 like a loser. Goodnight. I will never get him.