Confusing matters!?!

I felt strange. It was like every nerve in my body was being electrocuted by one persons comfort. I don't know why I fall so easily. I really wish I didn't fall at all, then I wouldn't have so many wounds. I truly was forgetting the tiny ideas I had about him, but now I can't help it. It is like when you get a misquote bite. You try not to itch and irritate your skin, but at the end of the day you cant stop the urge to do so. Right now I really wish the bite would disappear, because I'm trying to piece back together and I don't need another arrow through my heart. While I was sitting in class trying not to let my emotions show all I thought about was him. Why do I have to think about him? Why did I have to be curious for more? Why can't my curiosity reflect within him? When that class was over I basically ran to the door. Then later I saw him again, and I looked away. This time I'm trying not to let anyone, especially him, know how I fell. Maybe ignoring him is the best thing to do, but at the same time he is a good guy and this time I know it's true.