Whirlwind.

I write about people, that's what I do. Those people are usually guys I have my eye on, but that might change. The person I fell in love with last November is back in my life, not in the same way as before, but I can't ignore him. Ignoring, something I have tried to do for almost a year now. Its hard to talk to someone knowing you can feel love towards them. Love is such a powerful thing, I can't think of another word to describe the sensation I felt. Throwing that care away is something I am unable to do. As I said he is back in my life, and so far its been hard. Every moment between us plays constantly over and over again in my head. The thing that really gets me is how much it feels like the old us, the us that made me fall for him in the first place. At times I find his behavior cruel and wish he wouldn't look or talk to me, but what is a little pain to feel a lost connection again. I am Carrie and he is Mr. Big. I want more, and he doesn't know how to react. The other day as we were eating dinner, knowing I am a vegetarian, he asked," Want some chicken?" Something that again reminded me of the past. How do you move on when you find it unbearable. Until recently I regarded him as a stranger, but I can't disregard recent events. Am I justified, or am I a fool falling for the man that broke my heart?