You know my life is sad really. I spend most of my time watching YouTube videos and doing my makeup or worrying about my acne problems, or how fat I am. That is sad my friends. Sad to the max...did I really just type that.
Well anyway right now I'm working on an art project, while using the light of my makeup mirror. Did I mention gloomy. Sometimes I wish life was just like the movies, I would write on my blog everyday, my friends would stay over on a school night, I would have a boyfriend but not just any boyfriend. He would have to be the captain of the football team, or the boy that won state. Sadly this is fantasy and someone needs to give me a smack into reality, because this crazy lady ain't seeing things right.
I haven't written in a long time. I'm not sure why, I feel like I only write when I'm truly depressed. Which would make sense right about now, speaking that I saw the boy that I obsessively liked for five years, who called me a stalker and instigated my downward spiral into my messed up mind love fantasy game, otherwise known as oblivion. Yeah well that guy walked into my high school's talent show. It was literally like a movie moment, but not the dreamy type more like the nightmare from hell type, he walked in just as I turned and looked at the doorway. The worst part is my friends went to say hi to him, so I followed and then my other friend who didn't even know who he was told me to sit in the spot next to him, well first of all I was like hell to the nah, and second of all I had to tell her everything right there. Then they said my name, which he heard, and then I stood up and my name was on the back of my sweatshirt, and yeah he saw it. The worst thing is that the whole time I had insane butterflies, which I never get, and then I started thinking of how hot he got. I am a terrible person and that was the most awkward embarrassing night of my life!
